Lost Lovers, Lost Friends
For a real moment with you, I’d give.
For a thoughtful glance into your soul, I’d give.
For a chance to hug away the past that cannot last,
I live to understand
how what I said destroyed
what might have been the joy
between us.
So long ago, my voice untrue,
body unwinding from lives within lives,
I could not be what I am today or what I am becoming.
I could not see the elements we carry
and how our make up
is capable
of out living
any break up.
For a real moment with you today, I’d give.
For a thoughtful glance into your soul, I’d give.
For a chance to wash away the hurtful past that cannot last,
I live to understand
how what I did destroyed
what might have been the joy
between us.
Experience and experiments all at play each day.
Testing out the words.
Acting out the roles.
Practicing without a script to guide my way.
Self-blinded by my perceptions, clouded by dark storms,
I walked on without you pretending not to see how much of me
stayed cut off from what could have been the joy,
instead it was destroyed.
And so, I must let go of what could have been,
what might have been.
A past cannot serve what burns inside my heart today.
For me and you, lost lovers, lost friends,
friends who could have been lovers,
lovers who could have been life-long friends,
acquaintances that might have become the best of me,
best friends who might have known me as a mother and real lover,
where are we today?
I can only say that I am where I want to be, and still...
for a real moment with you, I’d give.
For a thoughtful glance into your soul, I’d give.
For a chance to shine away the hurtful past that cannot last, I live to understand,
how what I did not do destroyed
what might have been the joy between us.
May you live and love and love and live your ways here.
May you give away the real moments to those who stayed there.
May you find thoughtfulness in those souls that play with you on this day.
May you take the chance, run with romance,
laugh away the past.
And live to understand how what you said, did, or didn’t do,
cannot destroy the joy that IS you.