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When neurological symptoms began showing up in my body, I desperately tried to positive think my way into health.  I spent the first five to six years struggling to keep my mind focused on what I wanted, a healthy body, instead of what I did not want, symptoms showing up in my body.  I was frightened noticing symptoms worsen.  I could easily feel fear, worry, frustration, melancholy, self judgement & criticism.  I was unknowingly practicing those feelings throughout my days and getting nowhere.

Knowing what you want is a good start but not enough to create change.  You must also know how you want to feel and practice sustaining those feelings. This is where most people give up. It is also important to get clear about how you would rather not feel throughout your day.   

If I could gift you one thing, it would be to know what it feels like to feel good about you - to feel relaxed, in trust of life and your path, inspired, free, empowered, happy, joyous, curious, playful, renewed, childlike in wonder of life, in love with you and the life you are creating.  The goal is not to feel good 100% of the time.   Growth is born out of discomfort.  The human experience is sometimes uncomfortable or even traumatic, but we are more than humans experiencing the physical realm.  We are Divine Creators infinitely loveable, loved, and loving.  We are designed to both receive and give unconditional love.  Our heart capacity is stellar. 

We hold the ability to feel abundant without having money.  We can feel happy for no reason.  We can feel inspired by an idea.  While our analytical brain is convinced that we are separate from what we want, from other people, from the things we think we need, our heart already knows that we are connected to everything and everyone.  Opening the ever intelligent heart to feel good soothes the mind into anticipating that what you want is coming. 

Creativity is a great heart opener.  Below I offer some simple creative steps I use to creatively re-write my inner stories, to open myself into the awareness that now is the perfect time to feel good.

Preparation

Creating Feel Good Stories is like any artistic activity.  There is necessary preparation that will make the process easier. 

Are you practicing the 4 tips outlined on the Soothing U page? 

Have you been awakening to love by listening to soothing audios on the Audios 4 You page?

Great!  Here are some things you will use to make this a methodical, creative process. Creative activities transport us into a timeless realm of infinite possibilities. Take quality time to go through each step.  

Index cards

Sketch pad

Pen/Pencil/Colored Pencils

Unleashed Imagination

Your magnificent heart

Here we go! 

01 — What do you want?

What is a challenge you are facing?  What would you like to have that you feel separate from?  A healthy body, steady income, work you love, a romantic partner?  This is something you really want.  This is something that you think will make you feel so, so, so much better.  Write the answer as a phrase or a few words in the center of a sketch pad paper.   I recommend writing in block letters because this will slow your thoughts, calm your mind, and boost your innate creativity.  Any intentional stylistic lettering will do the trick rather than quickly writing your answers. Avoid analyzing.  Just play with this like a curious child. 

02 — How do you want to feel?

Next, how do you think you will feel when you have this thing.  Write each feeling on an index card.  For example:  If you want a healthy romantic relationship,  you might include feelings like relieved, happy, relaxed, appreciated, cared for, loved, accepted, and respected.

You would have 8 index cards, each with block letter writing for each feeling. You will need these index cards again for step 04, but first complete step 03.  

03 — What will you do?

Now let yourself imagine things you would like to do when you have what you want and are practiced in feeling how you want to feel. Things like travel, art, sport/exercise activities, group activities, write a book, take a class, anything that sounds fun to you. Write each thing on an index card in block lettering and draw a symbol that represents each thing you will do. Use one or several index cards for each thing. For example, swimming could be symbolized by drawing waves with a sailboat and a stick figure swimming near the boat. Writing could be symbolized with an open book drawing. These drawings are simple like a child would draw! Only you need to know what each drawing means.

03A — Imagine how you will feel then.

Imagination is a muscle you can engage. In your wildest imaginings, how will you feel when you know you are connected to what you want, are practiced in how you want to feel, and are doing the things you listed in step 03? Pick three to four feelings and create an index card with block writing.

04 — Turning feeling into drawing.

Now, gather your feeling index cards from step 02 and step 3A. Draw a variety of doodles around the phrase or words on each index card.  Here are some suggestions of simple things to draw.  Spirals, hearts, circles, squares, diamonds, curves, numbers, animals, smiley faces, stick figures, flowers. Place your judgment aside.  This is just a game.  Play with it.  You can start over anytime.  

05 — Put it together.

Now go back to your first sketch pad paper with the phrase or words about what you want written in the center. Add to this by writing in block letters the feeling words from your index cards to surround what you want. What you want is in the center of the page, surrounded by the feeling words or arrange the words any creative way you want. To complete this phase, draw doodles arounds the words in anyway you enjoy. Include some or all of the symbols from step 03 and any favorite doodles from step 04. I have gone through this process many times. I now have many feeling index cards and many sketch pad creative pieces. It may seem overly simplistic but being creative turns trying too hard into relaxed play and relaxed play allows us to remember our feel good stories.

06 — Love on uncomfortable feelings.

Next, what uncomfortable feelings are you familiar with? Here are some suggestions: anger, rage, despair, sadness, loneliness, frustration, anger, discouragment, fear, abandoned, rejected, self judgement, self criticism, self hatred, worry, doubt, etc. Write the first letter of each word onto a new index card. Use the back if you need more space. Spread out the letters symbolizing each feeling. Around each letter, draw concentric circles and a heart around the circles. Sometimes, I like to draw multiple hearts around the concentric circles. No real rules here. Be creative.

07— Practice feelings.

The real work is in practicing how you want to feel and holding uncomfortable feelings in compassion and love. Use the feel good index cards as prompts. They are like emotional flash cards just like flash cards for math or spelling. Imagine that you already have what you want or whatever you have to imagine to find the feel good feeling and maintain that feeling for 10-20 seconds. Even just one second is a enough at first. In the beginning I could only sustain feel good feelings for a few seconds here and there, yet with practice I can sustain them for long durations. Be kind to yourself in this. This is a very worthwhile journey. The better you feel, the more connected you will feel to what you want. If you keep practicing the way you want to feel, eventually you will want nothing more than to feel empowered and this is when magical things occur.

Use the uncomfortable feeling index cards to remind you of what feelings you do not want to linger in. For example, A for anger surrounded in hearts is a prompt to remember the feeling of anger and then practice becoming the circles and the heart around the anger. You can do this with practice. No feeling or emotion is bad. Uncomfortable feelings are simply waiting for your nonjudgemental presence and awareness. The heart around the anger is compassionate, soothing, comforting, loving, empathetic, understanding, calm, unconditional, and expansive. Your love is bigger than these feelings. For more about compassion go to the Soothing U page.

08 — Play with words.

In addition to practicing how you want to feel and holding uncomfortable feelings in love, begin playing with words.  On any paper, create sentences about how you want to feel.  Use all your index cards from step 02 and 3A. Begin by using I would like and then substitute I can learn, I choose, I know, I feel, I am. Here are some examples using relaxed and appreciated. Note which sentences soothe you and which ones feel out of reach.

I would like to feel relaxed.

I can learn to feel relaxed.

I choose to feel relaxed.

I know what it feels like to be relaxed.

I feel relaxed.

I am relaxed.

I would like to feel appreciated.

I can learn what it feels like to be appreciated.

I choose to feel appreciated.

I know what it feels like to be appreciated.

I feel appreciated.

I am appreciated.

09 — Use this Feel Good Story template.

Create Feel Good Story sentences using this guide.

I am living and thriving in …..insert answer from step 01.

I know what it feels like to be ……insert answers from step 02.

I am enjoying….insert answers from step 03.

I feel/emanate/radiate…insert answers from step 3A.

Write a general statement to sum up this new life you are tapping into….Life is good.  I love my life.  I am well.  I am whole.

Write a statement about anticipating more wonderful things coming.

Put this together to create a basic Feel Good Story. Here are some examples. I have written them with I am and I know statements. You can play with I would like, I can learn, and I choose if those feel softer to you. It is important to create a story that stretches you but not too much.

I am living and thriving in healthy relationships.  I know what it feels like to be appreciated, considered, heard, loved, and seen.  I am enjoying laughter, hikes, conversations, travel, and quality connection with friends and family.  I am relaxed, free, and grateful.  Life is good.  I am well.  More fun things are coming into my experience.

I am living and thriving in optimum health.  I know what it feels like to be playful, inspired, energized, and creative.  I am enjoying hiking, road trips, creating art, cleaning my beautiful home, and sharing meals with friends and family.  I emanate joy and love.  I am whole, happy and in love with life.  All is well.

I am living and thriving in a job/career that I love.  I know what it feels like to be valued, appreciated, efficient, and focused. I am enjoying the abundance and freedom, fun with friends, and city culture.  I feel happy and relaxed.  I am energized and inspired each morning to start my day. Life is good.      

10 — Try on more words.

Make a list of feel good words you may want to include in your Feel Good Story. For example, free, freedom, renewed, renewal, love, compassion, grateful, blessed, relaxed, relieved, inspired, kind, confidence, sovereign, sovereignty, integrity, devotion, grounded, play, playful, community, stamina, energized, curious, curiosity, happy, allow, whole, wholeness, joy, wonder, empowerment, trust, innocent, innocence, creative, vitality, forgiveness, laugh, ease, fun, transformation, etc.

11 — Keep playfully creating.

Don’t give up on you! Keep playing with this process. It took me about nine months to use this game to re-write my past, while having fun with this in the present moment. I re-wrote my inner stories about my childhood and I keep getting clearer about how I want to think, feel, and be. You can too! Now I create a new sketch pad art piece every month or so as I keep refining. I take my new expanding awareness into daily meditations and discover greater awareness of the Divine Love and Intelligence within me. I also have music play lists for practicing compassion, gratitude & appreciation, and my self care routine continues to change. I have been studying Dr. Joe Dispenza and Misa Hopkins’ programs for several years. Listening to truth teachers reveals personal truth.